I haven't felt anything at all besides anger, raw and unending for weeks.

I don't really have anywhere else to post this.

If there's a god up there/around there, I could use a little undeserved attention right now.

more:

i... can't remember a lot of today.

i know stuff happened, i can remember moments, but there is a significant amount that's just fuzz. i don't remember when i got angry or what it was at but now i can't remember stuff. a lot of stuff.

i've done my research, plenty of it - it's never mentioned in any of the descriptions of anxiety or depression that you lose time like this. moodiness, sure, but not with the side effect of literally not being totally conscious.

i have no idea what i'm supposed to do about this.